::silly little mind of mine::

last but not the finale.

2011-05-03T02:09:00.005+08:00

oh my. 2nd may 2011.
a public holiday for Malaysia.
in conjunction of labour day.

as for me & MC 770 peeps,
it is a hell good & bad day.
last day of class with prof redzuan.
submission of group report, individual, & yes. the final exam.
started at 8.30pm ends at 11pm.
it all went well.
even though we were struggling to answer the questions.
but hey, that is why it is called exam ain't it? :)

after class, the gang will go lepak for makan.
apparently, majority of us didn't eat proper meal since morning.
yes. the pressure killed our appetite! heh.
got home at 1.40pm.

& yes. this time, it really struck me.
i realized how fast time flies.
2 years.
4 semesters.
all of us went through it together.
laughter. tears. & of course, the pressure.
half of us are about to complete the masters.
as for the other half, well, we extend a couple of months for our thesis.
yet, no harm done.
we will still complete our masters no matter what.
the battle yet to end.

hmm.
i'm out of words.
i guess, the feelings are indescribable after all.
only memories will remain.

i must say that i have met wonderful people throughout these 2 years.
those are my queens & a wonderful guy.
indirectly, they have taught me more about life.
patience.
confidence.
maturity.
love.
honesty.
& trust.

i hope our friendship will last forever.
like ris said, let's grow old together! :)

p/s: we get to know each other as friends & end it as friends too. it sucks. :)
but like i said, new chapter perhaps. look forward to it. for sure.

much love,
puteri eiman.

can't help it.

2011-04-24T14:04:00.002+08:00

i miss talking to you.
i miss hugging you.
i miss kissing you.
i miss looking at you.
i miss saying i love you.
i miss you.
i miss us.

this is h.a.r.d.
real HARD.
i'm building myself up again.
i really am.
but it will be way much better if you are here.
with me.

yes.
it is hard to accept the things that happened.
but i hope u can see that i am giving my very best to patch things up.

i wish you could hear me.
i wish you could see it.
i wish you still reserve your heart for me.

i can't help it but to wish for it.
things will fall into places again.
i promise.

fresh from the oven.

2011-04-22T19:06:00.005+08:00

yes. i've deleted all of it.
one reason: it's only for me to know.

no. i am not going to keep on whining & blaming for things that happened.
23 years, 5 months, 21 days.
too many things, too many memories.
both good & bad.

& this is where i am.
still standing still.
almost fall though.
but not yet. that's not who i am.
i don't fall.
i pick myself up.
build it up all over again.
with new ways of living life.
forget the past.
live the future.
somehow wishing hard that you will come back.
that someone who matured me.
in a way.
especially during this critical moment.
assignments due, final exam, thesis.
& yes. it just can't wait to happen isn't it?
so there it is.

heartbroken. endless tears.
loosing weight. looking horrible.

you made me reach my breaking point.
perfect.
but i will prove to you that i am still the same strong girl that you fall in love with back then.
yes. broken promises. but that's life.
i will tell the whole world that i am who i am.
i hold on to my words.

even though observing from far.
i hope he will wait for me.
& again, still praying hard we will be together.
live the way we planned.

wait for me sweetie pie.